ok ok ok i have been reading durarara!! light novel translations for the past few hours, and just need to c/p two quick little things here for my own reference so i never ever ever forget them
- In vol.2 Anri admits to Mikado that she’s vaguely attracted to Celty right when he’s about to confess his feelings for her. [source] [as soon as I find a translation of the described scene you bettah believe that’s being pasted over this, proper-like]
Mixed feelings rushed to Anri’s heart the moment she heard that Celty was a woman.
Yet before she could articulate any of them, she was distracted by the sound coming from the neighboring room. [source]
(not negative feelings, not upset feelings. mixed feelings. harima was pretty canonically anri’s first love…so i wonder how much of those mixture of feelings are “maybe my feelings for harima were real after all, despite how she treated me, despite how much i want them to be nice and placid and platonic like my feelings for kida and mikado…”)
(ETA HERE HERE 2A. from before anri met celty:
As she strode on the lonely, dark road, Anri rearranged her feelings.
She liked Ryuugamine Mikado.
She was very clear about this.
But she also liked Kida Masaomi, and even now, she still liked Harima Mika.
—It was all the same. I like Ryuugamine-kun the way I like Kida-kun and Mika.
So she thought it probably wasn’t any romantic feelings, and merely the love for a friend.
Even if Mikado were to confess to her now, Anri probably wouldn’t be able to accept him. To her, it felt as if she was going to be two-timing him with Masaomi and she understood that she wouldn’t be able to put up with the stigma of such a terrible thing.
Perhaps it would be so much more easier if she were to love either Mikado or Masaomi.
But she still wasn’t sure about the differences between friendship and love. Even if she were to be able to specially love someone, it didn’t mean that she would be able to make good decisions from there.
She felt that if she were to make a decision immediately, she would ruin her friendship.
She was still unable to find where she belonged. [source])
ok also 3., anri’s thoughts when she’s confronting izaya (long after she met celty):
All the days used to fly by her without arousing a single bit of emotion; the ceaseless murmurings of Saika and the recurring nightmares were all she had. After knowing Mikado, Masaomi and Celty, she almost saw the silver lining that could bring her back to a normal life from this abnormality dressed up as a normal life - [source]
mikado and kida and celty are mentioned as her three most important people, the people who made her feel again…seriously this is as explicit as ennis -> isaac/miria why doesn’t fandom careeeeee
lol talking about ‘explicit’ subtext in a post that only makes sense to me, w/e w/e i’ll go to bed but i’m mad, there should be fic.